Today started off lousy. I woke up upset. At nothing in particular, just everything. As I went on with my usual routine, getting my son ready for school, getting him to school, running all the obligatory errands for the day. As all of this was happening I became more and more upset. I hate when I can't solve a problem in my mind alone. I'm not one for writing things out, especially when I'm upset. So what was going to be my outlet? How was I going to get rid of this angst and this urge to just plop down where I stood to cry it all out?
Then it hit me. I was feeling like dirt, the four walls were really getting on my nerves and I was starving. So I took myself out to lunch. That's right. I went out all by myself. I grabbed one of my favorite classics, Jane Eyre. Now, you may be wondering why I chose Jane Eyre right? I mean, I don't really come across as very girlie-girl do I? Well, Jane Eyre has nothing to do with being girlie. Quite the opposite. The main character is a woman of strength, resolve, diligence, and humanity. All the things I wasn't feeling at the moment. So I chose Jane for a little inspiration.
Off I went to the sushi bar, ordered my fave, and got down to being with myself, and enjoying my company. Why? I was in a place that I love, eating food that I love, reading a book that I love, and it was fantastic.
We don't always have the answers we need to the problem. Resolution is not always going to pop in our mind when we need it either. So sometimes, we need to take a step back, be mindful of ourselves an the role we play in our particular drama, and let it go for while.
When I did just that, it was no longer a lousy day.....
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